With a little help from my friends…
I would like to sincerely thank everyone in my life. Those at home, friends from the past present and future, those I work with and in my classes. Im truly inspired by everyone around me to make things better. To make our quality of life better. I wouldn’t be as driven as I am (though I should be more so) to find a solution to so many questions that go unanswered. Research, here I come!
I wish it Would Rain…
Too much Randomness in this noodle of mine:
1: How I Wish it would Rain
2: School is going to be Badass! Sociology this sem. and made a list of basic classes I want to take an have completed
2a) political economy(check), eng4bus (check), sociology, psychology, journalism, english, communication studies, american politics, economics, business marketing [advertising], business mgmt, guidance, child development, geology, math, anthropology, education [teaching], music, nutrition, philosophy, pe, political science, social science, spanish
3:Agoraphobia sounds amazing
4: I wish people were more upfront and honest rather than beat around that damn bush or lie to make something sounds better
5: Next semester, fuck work and take more classes
6: Need to get my New Years resolution done
7: I waited so long for soymilk, cereal is going to be so BOMB tomorrow
8: Im in love with a stripper/Sing Sing Death House!/Just my Imagination
9: I think I may be a paranoid hoarding cat lady once I finish college, minus the cats because I’m allergic
10: Im way to content in my relationship and as much as it’s stupuid… I actually like it :)
Holidays are here…
It’s Christmas time… That time of year with advertising cheer and material happiness. Horrible music and stressed out shopping drones. First year I have to share Christmas with someone else and their family and I have to admit that really stresses me out. This year I have Christmas Agoraphobia. Been up for hours and I just dont want to leave my bed. Bah- Humbug!
Waiting for my Ruca…
Well I finally did it. I went out last this weekend and had a really fun time. I can actually say that :) No drinks for me probably led to such a long night. Was called chill and was again asked if Ive ever considered modeling. This question always suprises me. I get told I look like im 15 but then asked if Id be a model. Maybe when Im 30 if im desperate for money I can apply to the Disney channel and be one of those creepy overacting people.
Grabbed a banana boba tonight, took a bath… which I never do, and wearing my penguin foosty pj’s. Going to make some hot chocolate and cuddle up with a book for a bit, then maybe have the boy over and cuddle up with a movie. life is good today. No complaints, just neverending thoughts. Like now that Harry Potter is over what am I to do with my life. Ill have to kill myslef if they bring out another series like Twilight. Which is even too terrible to watch faded.
But I really am happy for the Holidays to come up, the cinnamon smell makes me feel calm and warm. Not a fan of the commerciality but you cant win them all. I need a wintertime hobby. Maybe the rain will inspire me to pick up a pen and some paper… maybe start on my childrens book. maybe start baking more. Maybe stop wondering and take some action. <3
Shorty wanna be a Thug
I knew today was too good to be true. Got A’s on my test and Midterm essay, work went by fast, paid off my wetsuit, had a great lunch, smoked, chilled on a roof, got told I look nice multipule times today, just an overall good day, then… came home and got my medical bill. $385.00 for a five minute visit.
So my major spending for these past months
1) Rent obviously 390.00
2) Car accident repairs 375.00
3) Dental 250.00
4) (newest one) Medical 385.00
well, there goes my new car…
Next major spending, Fat blunt.
like Kat Williams says, ”There is an ingredient in weed called Fuck it!
I will Follow You Into the Dark…
Looking back, my last post was after my one month. Shows how often I write now adays, Went to see Incubus this weekend and comming up this week is my 6months. And suprisingly enough, Im still happy. Still content and pretty much in love. Seems weird comming from me, but I really think im getting the hang of this whole relationship thing. Sounds cheesy in a Colbie Collait kind of way but I really am lucky to be with my best friend. My partner in crime, the Mickey to my Mallory.
Enough with all that crap though. My room never seems to stay clean these days. No matter how often I pick up my clothes off the floor, I look down to find…more clothes on the floor. its like a black hole is in my tile just throwing out clothes in that one specific place in my room. It’s sincerely frusterating and I hope I can close that before it starts sending space creatures through my floor.
Im still working at that “dead end” warehouse job I wrote about last time. and its not so dead end, I actually kind of enjoy it. Its not the most mentally stimulating position but I still learn alot day by day. I got hired on recently so luckily I’ll have benefits soon. Which cant seem to come soon enough, Cracked my tooth the other day eating delicious now and laters and had to pay the price… literally, had to take the day off work and pay $250.00 to the dentist to temporarily fix the problem. Got some good pain meds though, planet caravan you will never sound so good. Back in school as well. Had to do an essay due tomorrow and I will go postal if I dont get an A or at least a high B. Ive worked so hard to comprehend the material if it doesnt get a decent grade, I officially have to quit at life.
Taking History-18 which is Political economy. If I get a chance ill throw my essay on this peice to show off some of my writing skills. Its a depressing topic though. Not that i havent thought about the stuff were learning about but to get into depth about learning how the world is going to shit. not the most pleasant of subjects but it feeds my morbidity pretty well.
Melodies softly soaring through my atmosphere…
Morning time with Mozart after a night with System of a Down. Yesterday was random and lovely. After peicing out from my dead end part time computer job i got a job at a dead end warehouse job with better pay. We found a new house and its close as can be. And I should be buying a car pretty soon. Life seems to be looking up but you can just never know what twisted turn of events can tarnish that feeling.
Yesterday was my one month-aversary and I wouldn’t intentionally celebrate a one month but System was playing and the boy wanted to go. It was a wonderful show and a wonderful night. I never thought I’d make it this far with someone withougt second thoughts, he doesn’t seem to understand that but maybe it’s better that way. The concert was so much more then I thought it would be, it was one big sing along and humans were united for that period of time. The smell of pot filled the air and no one said anything when we were smoking in the crowd. I love con
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Sometimes when Im bored and think about hitting someone up to chill,
I wonder.. Where did everyone go?
WhY do SoMe DaYs hAve To SuCk…
Why is life so irritating at times?
Why can I not remain happy?
Why am I such a stoner?
Why do I constantly feel inferior?
Why can’t I not screw something up for once?
Why can’t things just go my way for once?
Why am i sending these thoughts into the abysmal world wide web?
